Antisocial?
I was stupid about psych meds at the time, and probably should have started talking to a therapist at this point. Only took me 20 years. Oh well. -Nov 29 2024
Warning! Warning!
Self pity exacerbated by boredom and being snowed in.
Warning! Warning!
I know I'm an introvert, I scored a perfect I on the meyers-briggs personality test. This unfortunately does not mean I can exist completely without human interaction. Unfortunately, that seems to be what I'm doing at the moment since it does mean that I am socially inept and have difficulty meeting people. The extension of this is that I am not at my best when I am thrown into a new situation (say a new job in a new city) and have to find new activities and friends. I have been in Richmond for over 16 months now and I have to say I have a church I don't go to much, a theater group where tech is spotty and doesn't meet people, and exactly one real friend. I met said friend because I overheard that she lived near me and suggested we carpool during "Gypsy." I don't know where I got the nerve to even do that much.
I think the upshot of this is that I have never had to go out and make friends before, they've always just happened. My best friend when I was younger lived three doors up from me. The next one rode the bus with me. Then Oddesey of the Mind, then theatre, then APO and theatre. Now I don't have a clue what I'm doing. I realize I have to go out and meet people but I don't know how. I don't go clubbing since I don't dance. I don't go to bars because I will curl up in a corner. I don't go to concerts/live music because the types I like aren't real common here in Richmond. I go to the gym and bury my head in a book. I simply don't know how to pick a person out of a crowd, introduce myslef, and start a conversation.
Trust me, I've realized that I probably have a mild form of what is now being called "Social Anxiety Disorder" and could probably get a perscription for it. Problem is I don't believe in drugs for personality modification except where the saftey of the individual and/or others is involved. (I have to wonder how many Mozarts are being given ritalin rather then being set down at a piano). Beyond that, probably the only solution is to get out and do some of these things I don't do, and spend some time finding new activities and going out to try them. I just wish I could figure out were to start.
Warning! Warning!
I know I'm an introvert, I scored a perfect I on the meyers-briggs personality test. This unfortunately does not mean I can exist completely without human interaction. Unfortunately, that seems to be what I'm doing at the moment since it does mean that I am socially inept and have difficulty meeting people. The extension of this is that I am not at my best when I am thrown into a new situation (say a new job in a new city) and have to find new activities and friends. I have been in Richmond for over 16 months now and I have to say I have a church I don't go to much, a theater group where tech is spotty and doesn't meet people, and exactly one real friend. I met said friend because I overheard that she lived near me and suggested we carpool during "Gypsy." I don't know where I got the nerve to even do that much.
I think the upshot of this is that I have never had to go out and make friends before, they've always just happened. My best friend when I was younger lived three doors up from me. The next one rode the bus with me. Then Oddesey of the Mind, then theatre, then APO and theatre. Now I don't have a clue what I'm doing. I realize I have to go out and meet people but I don't know how. I don't go clubbing since I don't dance. I don't go to bars because I will curl up in a corner. I don't go to concerts/live music because the types I like aren't real common here in Richmond. I go to the gym and bury my head in a book. I simply don't know how to pick a person out of a crowd, introduce myslef, and start a conversation.
Trust me, I've realized that I probably have a mild form of what is now being called "Social Anxiety Disorder" and could probably get a perscription for it. Problem is I don't believe in drugs for personality modification except where the saftey of the individual and/or others is involved. (I have to wonder how many Mozarts are being given ritalin rather then being set down at a piano). Beyond that, probably the only solution is to get out and do some of these things I don't do, and spend some time finding new activities and going out to try them. I just wish I could figure out were to start.
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